perhaps i spoke to soon. was just saying the other day mums been feeling well over the past few weeks. Now shes in hospital with a chest infection. I don't know what to think, doctors say things without directly saying things. it is confusing to me. the doctor said if the infection doesn't clear up in the next few days it could be the begining of her palliative stage. he asked if we were prepared. whats he trying to say- is he saying shes that sick. sometimes i feel that its hard for me as im with mum so often i see her new symptoms, experience them and get used to them then another comes. perhaps i cant see that shes that sick, im immune to it. i dont know. i picture her comming home soon and being back to her usual level shes at. i can only hope. i hope this is making sense im so tired just got home from hospital.
