so i just thought id write this as another way to vent. Went to oncologist with my bf before chemo weds, he made him sign a form for medicare benefits ticking the 24 months or less box. He said 'i dont know what will happen but your cancer is agressive so we tick this box for now'. It made me feel so upset... i sat with him at chemo thinking and getting upset. I hate not knowing what might happen to him.. makes me feel sick. He's quite posative and in the right mind frame but its scary.. i cried myself to sleep beside him when he was asleep. Thinking of hish funeral- if it gets to that what will i be like? how am i supposed to cope? im only 23 how am i supposed to deal with this? he's the love of my life i dont know how to cope 😞
