my baby left us and has gone to heaven this week.. this has been such a touch week.. i have been in and out of hospital with my own health issues 😞 im devestated is an understatement.. i thought i could prepear for this but i guess nothing can ... it sucks! i miss him so much i had a meltdown the other day and acted like a crazy person.. i wet the bed, refuse to sleep act like a child.. lucky i have my parents to help me.. i feel like he will be back and he's just on a long holiday... the look on his face when he finally passed was not what i expected.. i thought it would be scary with his mouth open.. instead it was a smile a real smile with this look of relief on his face.. 🙂 my beautiful angel xoxo
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Don't think we can ever be prepared for losing them. I have such pain it is hard to believe it can be lived through. But I get up every morning, still here, and he's still gone......never ending, heart wrenching agony! I'm glad your angel had his smile, that's a good thing to remember, that he's okay?
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My darling, there are no right words to sympathize, and no words that can help you in your pain and loss, but that we all carry part of your sorrow and understand at least partially what cancer can do to us. You are an amazing, strong young woman and your angel had an honor to have you as his wife when even for such a short period. He lives in your heart forever! Love and Hugs Vlasta
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thank you all... he passed away on our 1 MONTH wedding anniversary 😞 i wish we had longer as a married couple it sucks.... but at least he had his cheeky smile on his face... 🙂
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...and once the unbearable pain had eased his cheeky smile will make you often smile back 🙂
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Maddie86, Wow this really is a cruel world we live in...... I am so sorry for ur loss of ur husband. Cancer is such a horrible disease that distroys lives, familes, hopes and dreams. It is cruel and unforgiving in those who it decies it will take. No one should have to deal with this kind of pain, let alone someone of such a young age and when u have just recently been married. I can only assume to understand ur pain..... All I can do is wish u well, let u know i am thinking of u and sending u support at this very trying time. When u are grieving u let urself be whatever it is u need to be and know in time life will become a little more bearable. Look after yourself - sending hugs ur way. Rubes
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I'm sorry that this has happened . I've heard it said before that even when you are expecting this you cannot be prepared . You have been trying to be strong for so long it's ok now to lean on others . That smile will become a precious memory .It will be difficult to believe that all this is real at times as it's so hard to accept . My thoughts are with you .
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Maddie I am so terribly sorry to hear of your loss. You have been such a tower of strength to you husband over the time and I am sure he appreciated more than words could possibly say. Sending you love and hugs Julie
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So sad for your loss..I am really not sure what else to say, as I am still on the roller-coaster ride of this GBM nightmare love and hugs to you xxx
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