trying to fight the tears

[Sap]

on the 30th may my boyfriend was diagnosed with Hodgkin lymphoma. He started his Chemo the day after his 21st and has just finished round 2. in a few weeks he will get all his tests done again and then hopefully told how many more chemo rounds he need and how much radiation is needed. its been hard this year we both had are 21st birthdays and neither of us felt like celebrating them. I understand everyone has a story on here everyone is different, but im writing on here just to express myself. the only nights i dont cry is when he is sleeping over. i want to be strong for him, i need to be strong for him! my dad had cancer when i was born and again when i was in year 12. my cousins has also just finished radiation and chemo for breast cancer. Matt keeps saying to me im sorry for putting you thru this you done deserve it. ( there is nothing he can do about it!). i said I love you and i will forever, my one and only. he said well not if i die. im scared his not dealing well with it and i dont know what else to do to help him. i love him so much i dont want to lose him he is my life i want to spend the rest of my life with him!

[Lukke1992]

I totally understand how you feel, i just finished having life saving surgery, and having chemo at the same time. and ive just turned 21 I admire your strength and and your will to stand by his side. He apologizes because due to the fact your hurting and there's nothing he can do to stop it and reason your hurting is because of him. Only thing you can do is stay strong for him and comfort him and tell him one day at a time and there is light at the end of the tunnel. I admit being in the position of having cancer your whole life is falling apart and so is everyone s around you, and you do feel guilt but there's nothing you can do. I wish you the best of luck and hope everything works out fine :) STAY STRONG!

[little_stitcher]

Hi beautiful, your story sounds so familiar to me. My husband was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin lymphoma, and I felt that the world had fallen apart. I won't tell you that it will be ok (because who knows, right?), but I will promise you that you're not alone. Feel free to send me a Private Message here on the website.. 'One day at a time' is such a cliche, but it really is useful advice- just keep going forward, and eventually you'll look back and realise how far you've come. Love and hugs, Emily