My husband is not looking too good and I'm so scared

[Mrs.B]

My husband was diagnosed in April with terminal cancer. He was diagnosed with bowel cancer 20 months ago, he had op to remove and also 8 months of chemo. 3 months later cancer was back, they operated again and then in April cancer is back and also spread to the pancreas. He has been losing weight and is In a lot of pain. I'm just writing here because I can't sleep and I'm so scared to lose my husband. He is everything to me and the thought of him actually dying is more pain than I can possibly bear. We have been positive up until today but he is now looking so unwell that we have cried together for the first time since all this happened. I think we may have been in denial, I'm not sure. Can somebody please give me some comforting words..how will I live without John. I can barely breath when I imagine a life without him. Please help me. If there is anyone out there that has lost their husband or is going through the same please help me. I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm dying with him.

[little_stitcher]

Hi Mrs B, my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 non-Hodgkin's lymphoma in 2011, and I can remember feeling like this too. I can't give you any words of advice, but know I'm putting comforting arms around you now. The only advice I can give is just to take one day (or even one hour, if one whole day seems to daunting) at a time. lots of love and hugs for you, Emily

[Mrs.B]

Thank you Emily, your kind words mean a lot to me right now. God Bless you xx