I just saw my partners scars for the first time today. Her breast looked really odd to me. I smiled and said that they looked great, but they really didn't. I know they will settle soon and look better than they do right now. I will really miss her body before the surgery. I'm sad that she felt she needed reconstruction. I'm sorry to be sharing something so negative and weak, but where else do I tell someone that the new look impacted me? It's also just so hard to see the physical markers of all of these medical interventions. The map on the body of the pain and the difficulty of the past almost two years. I'm really tired. Tired of being strong. Just a low night. Tomorrow will be better. Thanks for listening.