@SyXx It breaks my heart to read your post 💔 It takes me back to 2006 when my mother was diagnosed as terminal. Mum was also my best friend. She was also my support in amongst family dynamics. She was so important in my life. She has left a huge hole. Parts I can fill so the hole has grown less traumatic over time, but parts can never ever be filled.
We thought mum had flu but she had small cell lung cancer, and she was gone in less than 30 days after diagnosis. We started out treatment with hope for a few years but those were dashed.
It’s totally normal to fall apart. That’s what loving sets you up for. But you do need to get it together enough to be there for your mum. Even if that means you need to take some time off work to reduce stress and to enable you to focus.
This time is super precious for you both. Please make sure you have support. My brother was unable to do so and went AWOL. My sister and I supported each other as well as my mum and my dad. We’d break down and regroup on the phone each night after sharing care.
You have a right and need to collapse and regroup but this is now about making the best of the time left for both you and your mum, not wasting time like we all do when we think it will roll on endlessly and building memories to comfort you in years to come ❤️🩹
