Expressive Writing

Step 1...blood test, numbers extremely high. Step 2 ...biopsy, can't believe I did that. Step 3...PET scan to see if it spread. I will BEAT this!     ... View more

had news i may not be alive for long 😞 ... View more

Is it just me or does everyone seem to crumble around you as soon as you tell them you have cancer  ... View more

How can you tell I love you? I kiss you when you are sleeping I tickle your back to help you sleep I like to touch you when you sleep I check to see if you are breathing during the night I hold your hand when we're out walking together I rest my hand on your leg when you are driving I sit with you for long hours in hospital I don't want you bored for endless hours sitting waiting for me in hospital I worry about you I nag you about your health because I care I cut your hair, trim your beard I like to snuggle and I like you spooning me I go into boring shops with you, including shopping I sit with you whilst you watch countless hours of American Pickers I check on you when you're late home I worry you work too hard I worry when you don't sleep well I don't want to lose you I love hearing you laugh ... View more

I yam what I yam, That's all I can be. I'm sick of this illness, That keeps plaguing me. My scars I liken to pages in a book, Each a reminder of another breath I took. Clexane is evil, sinister and sick, I detested each and every painful prick. My lungs are shit, my thyroid has died, Kidneys aren't great, my fitness is fried. Steroids have been the bain of my life, For everything they fixed, they caused more strife. My who body aches, from my head to my toes, Will I ever be healthy? Who bloody knows!? A decent night's sleep, with no aches and pain, Is something I wish will happen again. I went on this trial to live longer each day, But instead of achieving that, it nearly took my life away. I'm the sunscreen Nazi and you must wear a hat, If I see you without, then we're in need of a chat! Life can be cruel and it nearly beat me, I wouldn't have made it this far, without friends and family. ... View more