Hi Sarah
I know how you feel thats why I also joined this site just now. I just needed someone to talk to that wasn't family or close friends.
I had already had radiation treatment for my brain tumor 12mths previous to chemo, but it had grown back so had to have chemo. I had oral chemo for the tumour but my meds were called Temozolomide, (prob does similar things). I found it easier than going to hospital for treatment as my veins hate needles.
Each morning I would take a nausea tablet 1/hr before taking 3 chemo pills. I did this for 5 days, then there is a 3 week break. Blood tests each month to check on white cell count. I did this for 6mths.
It will be 12mths this June since I finished. Nothing has changed. no growth, no shrinkage, and oncologist seems happy. The main side effect I found was some fatigue, was never sick and no hair loss.
Read up what you can about the Xeloda and hopefully someone here has used that particular one.n But I found the oral chemo easier to organise my time and was still able to work.
Duhhh me, didn't see your post date and you prob have made the decision. Oh well, least you know someone does read posts. Hope you are going ok.