Hi, I am a 30 year old Married man with two kids who had testicular cancer. I was, in the big scheme very lucky Caught early and between surgery and chemotherapy I got the all clear. Mentally though I took a big hit, I was young, fit and healthy I never even thought about cancer.
2 years on my scans still show all clear, bloods good, testosterone normal. Yet I still live with the fear of return. Every ache and pain in my Irrational mind At least might be cancer, and I better be safe than sorry because if I don’t check well maybe This time it might be too late!
Because I was unwilling to accept I had PTSD/depression And didn’t seek help I leant on my beautiful wife for support always looking for reassurance. Over 2 years this has sapped her will and has taken her and my spark away. Without even realising it I dragged her down, and stopped being me. It took her almost breaking down and her needing space for me to actually realise what was happening. I am now seeking help, I’m looking for a good psychologist, I am admitting I have a problem, I will be proud of me for committing to becoming the old me again and I won’t be a victim anymore!
please I would love to hear from anyone who is going or has gone through this, and if you have any advice. Also if your reading this, and this is you but you don’t want to talk please know your not alone.
thanks for listening
