Hi LCC I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis and that you feel "fake sick". Like you say, it would be lovely to wake up and it's all just a bad dream. But this is real and it's shit. And, unfortunately, well, it is what it is. There have been times where it feels like it would be easier to just not participate and hasten the inevitable end. A stage 4 diagnosis is not necessarily the end. Don't give up hope yet. I'm no expert, but you will likely have another meeting with an expert and or treatment team and she/he will discuss your treatment options with you. Some people with a stage 4 make a recovery, and other diagnosed can survive for many many years. But everyone is different and is depends on the cancer and the person. Treatments for cancer have improved in leaps and bounds. Discuss your options with your doctor and your treatment team. Keep that hope and nurture it. You can achieve amazing things yet. But if the worst comes to the worst or you decide you don't want to fight this, my advise is to discuss your diagnosis with your husband and children and be open to alternatives. Please keep us posted with how you go.
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