Hi Ally3
sounds like your 'coming down' from the cancer rollercoaster!!! When first diagnosed we are shunted around from doctor to doctor; test to test; and so on. The we have surgery, then we have chemo (maybe) then radiation (maybe) and then a regime of tablets that would put any pharmacy to shame, then MORE tests, doctors, scans, etc to make sure that all of the above did the trick.
I was originally diagnosed with advanced breast cancer two years ago, and even though I am still having ongoing treatments, there have been times when I too felt like I had been thrown on the scrapheap! What we have to understand is that this bloody disease (any cancer) plays with not only our bodies, but also our minds. If you let it, it will 'do your head in'. What you need is to give your body time to adjust to everything that it has been through, and give your mind time to adjust and clear out.
It is natural (I think) to feel angry - BUT NOT ALL THE TIME! This is just your natural defense kicking in - but you will need to start worrying if it becomes 'all consuming' and takes over your life!
Please let your body adjust to everything slowly, of course you will be tired - how many people do you know that get up and walk away from being hit by a Mack truck (which is how I describe the feeling after all the treatments we have!). You will get some normalcy (is that a word??) back in your life, but it will take time. Please try not to dwell on whether your cancer will return - you cant move forward, if you are always looking back.
Take care and dont be too hard on yourself. You are just being 'normal'.
Di 🙂