I need to give up alcohol and am struggling. Besides the addiction I've convinced myself now that it relieves me from my continuing numerous radio/ chemo side effects, even if only for that night. I am drinking to intoxication every second night because my hangovers are an all day affair after. Even though I feel vastly better without the hangover I am still drinking that night knowing I will suffer again the next day.
I feel so trapped and ashamed
I know you’re right about counselling. I did see someone via a care plan from my GP some time ago but did not complete it as I didn’t think it was helping. I had a psychiatric assessment meeting at PeterMc last July where counselling was offered and I turned it down also, thinking that with my retirement in August l might be able to quit alcohol by myself. Well that hasn’t happened has it!
Can you recommend any contacts with cancer survivor experience?
Yes get some help and support quickly. From everything I have read, alcohol opens the way for cancer to return...and if you are using during treatment it's inviting disaster
I found that the only thing good I can say about having gotten cancer is that I came out of treatment being a total stranger to myself...and it's been a challenge to watch this stranger I am becoming overcome challenges.
May I suggest you explore different support groups so that your own stranger finds a place to thrive.
By the way-I am intimately familiar with various types of personal addictions. Finding a support group of like minded people who also want to leave their addictions behind will help you grow.
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