blubber? not at all and its wonderful of you to share this with us. If anyone knows how you feel, its the readers of this site. Its probably best to let it all out, eventually the tears run out and you will start looking forward again. I have my fingers crossed for you. stay in touch and love everyday.   ... View more

Thats great news and Im happy for you. Now you have to move on, maye not forget the rest of us, but definitely move on with your life. BTW, my hairs starting to fall out, good sign? I can only imagine them cancer cells are also suffering. - Die you bastards! ... View more

the waiting is definitely tough, even now between cycle 1 &2 I am getting some anxiety about the mid program scan to see if its had any effect. But you know what, I am also finding it interesting living each day as if I had a few more. In some ways quite liberating and other fears are put in perspective. ... View more

enough cannot be said about getting any lumps checked out for men and women. I have no history of it at all, same for family, but if I did not get my lump in the place where it came up (armpit) which made it obvious, then who knows what my chances would have been.   ... View more

you saidnothing wrong at all. I was referring to people outside this community or forthat matter anyone not facing serious illnesses like these.  anyway, what else is happeningin your life?   ... View more

its not easy telling anyone especially your own kids. But Ive found them to be more resilient than I thought. At least they appera to shut out negative thoughts better than I do. I talked to someone today and it was interesting because I don't view it as a "battle". Its not like I have a choice but to take whats given and let nature decide how my body responds. Certainly a positive attitude makes each day more pleasant. But I can now see it clearly as a journey, a detour in the life that I thought I had planned and maybe will get back on again one day. It has changed my perspective on life and whats important and how interesting it is to accept that not many others can see it. You have to be in these shoes to trully know it. take care ... View more

Don't worry about being pompous, where all here with the same worries and challenges. I hope yours turns out to be something quite treatable. I'm now waiting on my first session of chemo and my attitude is starting to change from fear to a desire to get on with it. Keep in touch and let me know how it goes. ... View more

thanks mikey. This web site is a real help as is the phone service that I used today to get some answers to questions that were really bugging me.  I am quickly learning about taking a day at a time. Something very new to me. God bless you all. ... View more

to a wonderful daughter. As a cancer survivor myself, I can tell you that your dada would just have been glad that it was him and not one of his children. You clearly have loved him and it sounds like a wonderful family. Your spirit, faith and memories ensure that he never really goes away. Keep loving him and embrace the love that he had for you. take care and treasure your life. ... View more