Pabs Place can now be googled! website is under construction but it is available to view the work so far. Thanks Jo and Rob xxx ... View more

Biggest Morning Tea. Donned my pink wig in coffee club. Took the opportunity to hand out Pabs Place flyers and had a lot of positive responses. website is in the making as well thanks to versallion and her husband. It can now be googled! YAY! This year is the year I will achieve something I will be proud of forever!!!! Something besides my girls that is. Bj was helping with BMT. You should have seen her!! So enthusiastic about fundraising and rattling facts off to anyone she came across. She raised $191.75 on her own. Then raced home to find out how that much money would help someone with cancer. Then she was asking when we could do another one haha. I was very proud of her. :-) Take care Alana ... View more

Thanks star shine I wont go back. The girls and I are slowly building ourselves back up. Not easy but definately rewarding. We seem to grow closer and closer everyday 🙂 We will come out the other side of this stronger, closer and with a loving, unbreakable bond. Take care Alana ... View more

Jill, I raised about $500 yesterday and did it with you and your family in my heart. Sending love, strength, compassion, and anything else you might need your way. Always here for you. Alana xxxx ... View more

wow, you truly are a warrior woman!! Very apt name. Welcome to the site! Congratulations on your wonderful outlook. You show great strength after what you have been through :) Alana ... View more

Hi Jill, I want to cry so maybe you won't have to today, i want to scream so it releases some of your pressure. I want to punch a pillow if it can make you feel a little relief. I want to run and run so it takes you away from all this for a second or two. But none of this will make the slightest bit of difference. Instead I send you cyber hugs, love and strength, and the knowledge that you are not alone. There are many of us thinking of you. take care Jill Alana xx ... View more

Love it when your own words come back and slap ya awake hahaha. Thanks Jill. Needed that. Must remember to pack that pink wig for the cruise. I am going for one of my best friends 40th to answer that question for Julie. There are three of us all with a birthday just before so that was a good enough excuse for us 🙂 I have been a Mum since I was 18. Not much opportunity for big holidays so this is my first overseas holiday. Have to get my passport organised as I have never had one. So nervous about being away from my girls for 16 days. WIll be sending them on their own holidays to my sisters or I will never relax. Some days I want to cancel as I stress out about whether they will be ok. That darn umbilical chord is never completely severed is it? lol Seems Stepford wives was not one of Nics success stories. No one I know seems to have got through it all!!!! Take care ladies ... View more

Arrrrrr! Hindsight. Lol. Would probably be such a boring journey if we were born with it. What is that movie with Nicole Kidman and everyone is so perfect and boring. Havent seen it all but did they turn out to be robots? haha. Glad you are feeling well despite the fatigue iron deficiency brings on. You sound busy! I havent been on much while settling so dont know whats happening with your arm, but hope everything is ok. Take care, dont do to much. You sound like me at times and like to have a few projects on the go at once :-) Oh guess what I did. Booked myself on a cruise. Might have to cancel if T's scans are not good in July but was a big step to book anyway. Hawaii wow. ... View more

Hi Julie, How have you been? Thanks for the heads up. Have come across the cycle while studying social work. I should know better (sheepish face). If I was to analyse myself, which I do often (always room for improvement lol), honestly I would say I need to get more self respect. For some reason I must unconsciously believe I dont deserve to be treated with the love and respect I expect my friends and loved ones to receive. I am working on it. Have myself in counselling as well as the kids and I will get there one day. 🙂 As you can imagine, another relationship is far far away for me. But eventually when it comes along I should be nicer to myself. Same goes with friendships. I find I always help even when people kick me in the teeth. I know in capital letters in my file it will say MOTHER ISSUES. lol. Sometimes it would be nice to be ignorant hahaha. My counsellor tells me sometimes I also need to be less accepting of peoples bad behaviour as I am enabling them to be that way. (another sheepish face) ... View more

Thanks everyone, I have had such a mixed response to not going back, majority of people have been supportive. Funny though that the negative comments are the ones that affect you. Wont let it get me down. Was only his Mum who seems to think he has rescued me from a life of poverty (huh, had my own place, job etc???) and a couple of his friends. Well two to be exact. Yesterday was a horrible day. Today I feel stronger. I can never go back, its not a healthy place, although I will support T as much as I can. I am strong enough for that, its just the being together part I cant do. He still is not happy with that, but then again before the suggestion of restaging he wasnt happy with it. Thanks for always being here. Hope I have helped some of you the way you have helped me. Your all amazing xxx ... View more