Hi Justin, Just wanted to say when my husband was diagnosed with testicular cancer my whole world fell apart. I now understand how he felt when I had thyroid cancer a few years before, its one day at a time...oh and focusing on future. ... View more

That is such great news! XX Amanda ... View more

Its amazing how many of us feel this, its exhausting making everyone else feel great about what you've experienced and where your at. We all live this double life so to speak, especially because people assume treatment is over...its all done and dusted. My respone to the "your so lucky" call is, " i am greatful that I have lived, but lucky would be to have never had cancer at all". Especially hate when completely healthy people with no serious life problems say it. Hope your feeling a little better today. XX Amanda ... View more

Hi Donnai, I am so so sorry to hear your mum passed away, my thoughts are with you and your family. You and your family have had such a traunatic experience, because it happend all so unexpectadly it is going to take some time to process. What you have experienced is one of the hardest things we'll experience in our life time. My husband lost his father 2 years ago, we had no idea he was on borrowed time and being with him in his final moments and planning the aftermarth was just so surreal. My husband still is trying to work through it all, its so traumatic it takes time. My husband was classified the rock as well, unfortunatley for him it has prolonged breif and everyone still expects him to be a rock. I just wanted to offer you big hugs and say be kind to yourself, it is ok to fall apart and feel the emotions. luv amandaXX ... View more

Hi Flight, I can relate to your analogy and I think we all feel the aftermarth of our illness leaves us changed and somewhat fractured. Rebuilding our lives and discovering the new pieces of the puzzle is such an exciting process, which we can experience with new eyes. It sounds to me like your bucket is full already. XX Amanda ... View more

Hi Donnai, What a shock, sounds like it has been a whirlwind of events. How incredibly hard it is to be the rock, but your role is so so important. Tecahers mum is right there is no right or wrong way to handle it, be kind to yourself. Sadly we have been thorugh family experiences with terminal cancer and have faced our own cancers, I can totally relate to that feeling of being lots and having to do it all anyway. What an incredibly strong woman you must be and how lucky your family are to have you. I want to offer you hugs and a shoulder. XX Amanda ... View more

Hey Samex, Distance Reiki is a method you cna use when you have done Reiki 2, its used alot in the reiki community to band together and send lots of energy from all available to help heal the person (with the other persons consent though). I used when my husband was having his operation on the hour every hour for the 5 hours it took for the complicate operation. I also had a community of reiki healers do it for me when I was having treatment. Reiki is relaly a way of life and such a lovely gift you can give yourself, definately worth while exploring if you are interested :) love and light ... View more

Jules, I love Reiki, it was especially helpful when my husband was diagnosed with testicular cancer. It gave me focus and made me feel like I could do something for him, I did it on him almost every day leading up to surgery it was a bit hard during chemo though. With Reki 1 you cna do it on yourself also, not sure if you do that. I love giving myself reiki all the time, if I am having trouble sleeping it helps relax me and get me off to sleep. love and light ... View more

Loralee, I just read your blog how scarey for you, its our worst nightmare as survivors. It still may be nothing right? When I was pregnant with No2 I lost my voice for 5 months, given I had cancer in my first pregnancy I did not feel confident. I was watched closely through the pregnancy, then sent ot and ENT to look down my throat before doing an ultrasound. It turns out I had thickening of the vocal chords, crazy but I was so estatic its really not a nice thing other but I thought thank god its not cancer. It really knocked the wind out of my sails. Not sure if your interested but I do reiki and am level 2 so I can infact with your permission do reiki long distance if you would like... just let me know if your interested. I am sending you lots love and good wishes, I have everything crossed for you. Beside you still have not been to oz to meet me you have way to much to do to be sick. ... View more

Hey PS, You are so so right, our medical system is not at the level it should be. My aunt was 36 when she had an abnormality on her pap smear, she was told not to worry about it. 6 months later she was rushed to hosital for emergency surgery for her cervical cancer...then 1 year after that passed away. Something I will never forget I was only 13 at the time. her time was cut way to short and it was not her own doing, she trusted her doctors. I obviously worte the beginning thread was 6 years misdiagnosed. My husbnad spent 6 months being misdiagnosed and although we kept pushing Drs kept just avoiding tests ect. Luckily someone ordered a full body scan and found his pelvic tumour which needed extraction immediately. He almost lots his life because of Drs not doing their job. Our system does need an overhaul, our Drs need to listen. I believe Drs bedside manor these days is atrocious, they are so busy saying "i don't know, its porbbaly nothing" or "lets investigate futher" they palm off the issue and put us all at risk of not getting the treatment we require in time. Infact your suggestion of our medical system overhaul I think deserves its own blog, I would love to see everyones opinions on the current system. Thanks for bringing it up PS, as you can see its a big bear of mine. Amanda ... View more