Oh Jill, You have shared so much of your esperiences with us here. I feel so much for you and your boys. You have always displayed so much strength, so even though this sounds so trute and cliched, I know that you will be there for your boys. I just hope that there is someone for you. A huge, gentle cyber hug. S ... View more

Hi Mazza, I am currently dealing with depression, partly as a result of not dealing with the "new normal" (as we often call it here) of post chemo. Things are looking better and I wish that I had found this site while on treatment rather than when I had finished. It's not possible to always be positive. Thise of us who have been ther understand that. Take care, Samex ... View more

Hi MAzza, Anything really goes here. You will find a number of people who have shared your experience and sometimes it is just good to be able to talk. We have all been frightened. Samex ... View more

Is all of this is perhaps a lesson for everyone to take on board? Irrespective of our circumstances, we must never take those around us for granted. One day, maybe, they may not be the same person so let's rejoice in each other now. My thoughts to you both through this heart breaking time. S ... View more

Auden's words are both beautiful and true, Sailor. DizzyDee, please remember that there is always an ear for your outpourings here. S ... View more

When a very close friend died he was living on the far north NSW coast and I live in Sydney. I unfortunately missed seeing him by a day as he declined very rapidly and my flight organisation etc didn't work. His wife said that she wanted me to remember him like he was - a guy who played guitar and ran a 2hr 50 min marathon. That is how I do rememeber him but I also wish that I could have that day, just to hold his hand and to tell him that I loved him. I guess just take each day as it comes and I beleive your memories will be what you want them to be. Take care, S ... View more

Hi Jill, Just saw him then. I am a hypochondriac and he just laughed, fortunately with me, rather than at me! Just some muscle pain. Just like the sensible part of my brain told me.Thnaks for asking. Hope you are coping, S ... View more

Hi Cats, Please try to rid the self loathing. I was down that path for a while and like Sailor, pondered on the "what-ifs ". I now realise that I can't change what has happened, nor can I change anything that I may have done to exacerbate my getting cancer. So now, I try really hard to make the most of today and tomorrow - even if that means my sore feet. Reiki would be completely hrmless and I had a friend some yeras ago who was suffering really badly with chemo effects and he had reiki and his wife said that it was the first good night's sleep he had had in about 10 years. And he was a sceptic. I agree with Saior about the counselling. See what your Gp can do. It is helping me. No tears for 5 weeks (and counting). Take care and cuddle the dog, S ... View more

Hi Sailor and others, I have just returned from a family lunch near the beach in SYdney - not nearly as grey as Melbourne seems to be and your piece brought an extra smile. My psych asked me last visit what was the uppermost item in my bucket list and it was to see my sons graduate from university. The youngest is only 16 so I need a while yet and the eldest will take years to finish his double degree. So like you Saior, I need to keep stretching the horizon. While I don't have little people in my life, the big ones still serve the same purpose. Thanks for bringing that into focus again. SAmex ... View more

Hope Friday was and OK day Jill. S ... View more