Hi Cindi , I'm having a good day, there is only little pain, hardly noticeable, I also had a good sleep ,a first for a long time 🙂 So sorry your having a tough time, I wish I could give you some of my good feelings, you're a very courageous person with a strong will, and with your kind words, you give me some of that courage as well. I'm hoping that very soon you'll be feeling a bit better. Sending you love and comforting hugs. You're always in my thoughts of becoming well. Richard xx ... View more

Hi Jennifer,  Thank you,  the treatment went well today, just a tiny bit of pain right now and very bearable, no doubt it will increase in the following days, I have the panadol on the ready. Always thinking about you and sending you calming hugs. Richard 😘❤😘xxoo ... View more

Hi Cindi,  The treatment today was easy, no pain atm, I saw the Oncologist on the way out and he said the 4th, 5th and 6th treatments will be painful, anyway I'm ok right now. I'm so sorry that you're in a lot of pain and discomfort from this last treatment , I can only but wish it won't last. Always thinking about you and wishing you well. My best wishes, always.  Richard xxoo ... View more

I'm just heading off now for my treatment, I'll message you later. Sending Hugs, Richard xx ... View more

Jennifer you have gone and going through so much, my heart goes out to you, you are such a strong person with the courage to keep on fighting this. Are you having more treatment soon ? or is that not working ? and what is the next step for you ? Wishing you to be clear of this and better. My thoughts are with you always. My best to you too. xx   ... View more

Hi Jennifer,  Thank you , my Surgeon and GP suggested I go on antidepressants to lift my mood, but one of the side effects was anxiety, i really don't like this feeling, but I was told the anxiety will settle and I'll feel better, I hope so as I've never felt anxiety like this before. How are you ? What is happening with your treatment now and what stage are you at ?? Hugs to you, Richard xx ... View more

Hi Cindi,  Sorry for the delay, I've been feeling ok, the BCG last Monday was ok, the treatment lasted 2hrs, everyday since, the pain in my bladder has been increasing slightly, but no big deal, my next treatment is tomorrow, the onc team said every week the pain intensity will increase slightly.  I'm taking antidepressants, but I'll have to wait a while for them to kick in, they're making me feel more anxious and brain fog, apparently that's normal and temporary, but really I don't like this feeling, I'll persevere though. How are you feeling after your double chemo ?, I hope you're feeling a bit better by now. Thinking about you and sending you hugs. Richard xx ... View more

Hi Jennifer,  Thank you very much, you and Cindi are just amazing and I'm so glad that I have met you both here, your support helps me keep going and stay focused. Yes, I'm hoping my immune system can improve with the treatment and fight all these other horrible things going on with my body. My partner helps me stay focused and calms me when I'm so down, just like the last few days when I've felt the worst in my life,  health wise and mental well being. I just can't believe that a year ago I was so fit and healthy for my age, anyway I have to concentrate on getting better and managing my health from now on.  Wishing you better with your treatment.  Always here for you, Take care. Richard xx ... View more

Hi Cindi,  Thank you sooo much, I really appreciate all your support and suggestions for me, you really are amazing , you're a true friend that I'll never forget.  My GP needs me to have a multitude of tests tomorrow morning as I need to fast prior to, he said my tongue has irreversible cracking damage which is severe, he said with these new tests hopefully he will be able to get a diagnosis and treat the symptoms 🤞, the results will be a week away. I will send you that private message over the weekend, thank you. Always thinking about you. Take care, and lots of hugs. ❤ Richard xx ... View more

Hi Cindi,  I'm glad you're feeling a bit better now, that's good. I'm just waiting till the 11th now for my first treatment.  I wish I could say that I'm good, but really I'm not, I had an allergic reaction to some medicine last week and its affected my whole body with a rash, I only took the medicine for one day when I realised there was a problem so I stopped it immediately. My GP has taken some tests for sjorgens syndrome that I may have developed over the last couple of months, i have all of the symptoms unfortunately , I get some test results back later today, if I do have it there is no cure either. My GP has said my immune system is not good right now. I just can't believe I'm going through all of this, a year ago I was very healthy and now I have all this going on including my bladder cancer, I'm just so stressed and finding it hard to sleep even with sleeping tablets. I wish I had something good to say , I'm just so miserable but my partner is so supportive and try's to lift my mood, I know I must try to stay strong. Take care. Always wishing you well again Richard xx ... View more