Hi Choc, Thank you for your reply. Your right about being in a crowded room and still feeling lonely and wapwap, I've never considered that its the new normal and of all things I have heard this makes the most sense. Much better than people saying things get easier. Over the past few years I have been seeing a few psychologists after being recommended by the hospitals counselor. I have found that things may feel better for a few weeks but it keeps going back like it all happened yesterday. I'm just about to start with a new one at the end of this month... ... View more

Hi Dizzy, it's my first time on here and your post lept out at me. I have lost my grandparents (who I lived with growing up). My grandad in September 2008 - 2 weeks before he was to walk me down the isle and my grandmother was diagnosed just after the end of my honeymoon, she passed almost a year ago. I'm still struggling to get through everything and cannot understand how to get through everything as I was my grandma's carer and we were all very close. I find that I cannot stop the tears and the world wont give me time to stop - and even if it did I don't know if I could. I find although my husband is fantastic and supportive and although he tries to help I feel quite alone and lost with no family around me. Unfortunately I don't have any advice like many of the others here but knowing your not the only one may help? I guess we have to try and hold on to the good times and try to deal with it in our own way?? ... View more