You are not weak at all. You will make it. 27 July will come  but l have heard from many people by the time you finish with chemo it feels like it's almost killed you but you feel better quickly when you ring that bell. Do you have any leave of any kind to use in last month's June July??  Good luck reach out when you need it there are people  thinking of you.  Helen      ... View more

Hi Richard  It's very very tough... some sort of unique torture to have hands and feet in such pain which l guess means someone  has to help you with most things. I have the same feeling of waiting  for next bad thing to happen. Distraction only goes so far doesn't it. Eventually  we have to accept being in this situation  and try to relax into it. I only achieve that about 30% of the time but it's something... sending hopes that the breakthrough arrives. Helen  ... View more

Hi Richard It's about a month since you wrote that. Are you feeling  any better? It definitely comes in waves of negative and then positive.   Helen  ... View more

Wondering  how you are going... lm sort of in a waiting room trying to make most of each day. But you never really feel right or normal.l have a low level creeping anxiety with me 24/7.    ... View more