Hi Julie, Thank you for your thoughtful words. I feel exactly how you described it. I love him and miss him more then anything...I wish I could still talk to him and get a response back. But at the time I'm glad he is not suffering anymore. He is at rest. I just hope I can cope with him not being here. Kat =( ... View more

I'm sorry for your lost. Cancer is a horrible disease. My dad is battling it right now. But the cancer is winning. Thinking of you Kat ... View more

Hi Joshr, Glad to hear that your dad has decided to try the ensure route. Hopefully he keeps taking it. Your lucky that your Mom is involved with the process. My mother unfortunately is very sick herself. She had throat cancer and had to have a total laryngectomy. (Which is the removal of the vocal cords and blockage in the the throat for breathing purposes) And she cannot handle the strain of taking care of my dad. At the moment it is 4am and I'm waiting on a call back from my brother who is at the hospital because my fathers behavior was aggressive tonight. The hospital called my brother to see if my brothers presence would help calm him down. He was very agitated for some reason and the nurses did not want him to leave. (My father is a smoker...and cannot smoke in the hospital...therefore he has to go outside to smoke. He also has a history of sleep walking and he's been going to different rooms bothering other patients) Its been a very rough night =( Hope your having a better night/day then I am Kat ... View more

I totally understand what your going through. I felt the same way when my father was DX back in February, and I felt I needed to know everything. I wanted to know what to expect. But I've learned that every situation is different. The human body is an amazing machine and you never know whats going to happen. Like Forrest Gump said "Life is like a box a chocolate, you never know what your going to get". ... View more

Hi Barbie, I'm new here too. I do not have cancer, but my dear father has it. And he is very lonely too, even if my brother and I are around all the time. I agree with Chris that children bring life around. That's why I try to bring my 9 month son to see my dad as often as possible. It makes him laugh and smile 😃 ... View more

Hi Joshr, Believe me I so know what your going through. My dad has brain cancer and is very stubborn as well. Sometimes I feel like world war 3 is going on in my family as well. My dad was also abusive towards my mother during his first cancer. It feels like we have to walk on eggshells all the time and be careful what we say or do not to upset them. I also agree with your comment on this being a great site. I enjoy it very much as well and I'm new here too. 😃 ... View more

Thanks for the comments warrior woman and deejay. Very encouraging especially coming from people that are going through this as well. Good luck with your cancers. I know its not easy. My dad is taking anti-depressants. But it feels like he is so deep into his depression that he just wants alcohol to numb all of his pains. I went to see him yesterday and he was not at the hospital. He had walked to the bar. Which is a good 10 block walk. He's very fragile, he has problems with his balance which in turn he has problems walking. I don't know what he is thinking. So I just left him a note to call me, and he hasn't yet. I wish he would. I've called the hospital to get updates from the nurses. So at least my mind is clear. I just wish he would stop being so stubborn. ... View more