Me too.   I get frightened to death some days,   I know my husband loves me and is so very supportive, but now and then nothing makes very much sense and I get to thinking really rotten thoughts.   I do hope that things have taken a turn for the better for you over time.   Life's not all that fair, is it?   I have no way of thinking that I have done anything to deserve all this crap.   Let me know how things have become for you sometime.  I need all the help I can get just now.   pinkroses ... View more

Thank you. 🙂 The feelings of regret are now not as strong, I just miss her so so much, and all the little nuances in our relationship that I know I'll never be able to replicate with anyone. Seeing all her things and going to see Dad now is so bittersweet - good to feel close to her but incredibly sad that I can't be with her anymore. Thanks everyone for your lovely words of support, they really do help. It's great that this forum exists, as I feel that, now that a couple of months have passed, some friends think I'm okay and don't show as much concern as in the first few weeks. Have found that a little surprising in a few cases. I also think a lot of people don't want to talk about Mum as they think it'll upset me - but I want to talk about her and remember her, not pretend everything's fine.. She was such a huge part of my life and still is. ... View more