Hi Sassykali,
It's been a while since I have been on the site and your message came up. I have moved on, slowly, and I can tell you that it does get better. I'm coming up to my three year anniversary. I'm not going to tell you that life is perfect, cause it's not. I still have my moments and my memory I am told will never be quite them same but at least I am developing ways to cope with it. It did take time to accept my new reality.
I do really understand what you are going through. I had a 'unique form' of endometrial cancer and menopause is a bitch! Most of my friends did disappear, and at the time it really hurt, but the benefit is that I now have a small circle of friends who I can focus on and I know they love me for who I am and accept me the way I am (post cancer). I cherish them for their on-going support and I thank God that the others have fallen by the wayside because I don't have the time or energy to put into false relationships.
I am part of the gynecological group on this site which has regular chat sessions. Unfortunately it is on during a time when I cannot make it but you might like to consider joining.
Sometimes I wish I could sit down face to face with other survivors 'like me' just to make sure that I am not alone. Talking helps and talking to people with common understanding is even better.
I really hope that you have the strength to keep going.
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