Hi,
I think hope is the most important thing to cling onto, when life has changed so much and so suddenly.
Your body has gone through enormous change, abruptly .... and your mind/emotions, now need to catch up.
I know I signed my consent forms, thinking "what choice do I have", you put your future life in the hands of someone you've perhaps met for an hour or two at the most, trusting they will only be used if necessary. I don't think we are prepared enough for the potential consequences, and the "New Life" we are left with. Remember though, you are still here!
It will take some time to come to terms with the New Regime, but at the end of the day, you are still here, still with your husband, family and friends.
Write your questions down before you meet the radiation oncologist & gynae oncologist, make 2 copies and leave spaces so you can write answers down as they are given. It's difficult to take everything in at once.
Take time to adjust, to the new you, time can heal so many things, ask about natural supplements that may help, such as cranberry tablets.
Most of all be gentle with yourself. Tears may come at some stage, when you think you should be "adjusted"... but that is a natural grieving process and healing in itself.
Be strong, focus on milestones, along the way to recovery!
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