4 days before Xmas I was told I have stage 4 Lung Cancer, which has spread to my spine, ribs, arm, shoulder, neck, Lymph nodes, adreanal glands. I was told I have 12 months left without treatment and 1-2 years with treatment. I start my first chemo next friday 6 jan. I am devastated. I have a daughter who is 23 and a son who is 30 and a 2 year old grandson. I have gone from being a fit healthy person, a manager with a great job and 35 staff under me. I was treated for Pnemonia until I could not stand the pain any longer and took myself to the hospital after many tests and 3 weeks of waiting, my whole world has been turned upside down. I am angry that this thing has been growing in me for a few years and I have never had any incling. I feel cheated. I will never see my daughter get married or watch my grandson grow up. I have gone from being a bundle of life and energy, to a crying, depressed mess of a woman. I hate my life now. I just want it to go away
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