June 2014
For starters you can't fix it! Nothing can. I lost my husband 3mnths ago we have 3 children 11,8,6. If he is getting out of bed in the morning than he is doing ok . operating on remote is the only way we can function. Our hearts are broken our brains and body numb.just be there, love him and support him it will get better... ox
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June 2014
For starters you can't fix it! Nothing can. I lost my husband 3mnths ago we have 3 children 11,8,6. If he is getting out of bed in the morning than he is doing ok . operating on remote is the only way we can function. Our hearts are broken our brains and body numb.just be there, love him and support him it will get better... ox
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June 2014
For starters you can't fix it! Nothing can. I lost my husband 3mnths ago we have 3 children 11,8,6. If he is getting out of bed in the morning than he is doing ok . operating on remote is the only way we can function. Our hearts are broken our brains and body numb.just be there, love him and support him it will get better... ox
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October 2013
Hi everyone, been a long few weeks. Another hospital admission with hubby last week with the worst pain I have seen! Would not have wished it on my worst enemy and barely managed to deal with watching hubby go through it 😞 his moods have been so irratic lately and its been rough on the kids. One minute daddy is yelling at them for the smallest of things and next minute showering them in love. He doesn't even seem to realize he is doing it. So today was chemo hook up day (3days with port every fortnight) and it is cycle 3 of the new chemo so we were to find out today if it's working. Turns out apparently not 😞 another slap in the face for my beautiful family from this horrible disease. My heart hurts for him and yet he just taked it on the chin like the trooper he is. I see his pain n sadness though. Sorry just to vent and bail but munchkins are calling. Love and thanks to all of you. Some days just seeing your posts and knowing im partly normal is helpful ox
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October 2013
Hi selly, I remember when hubby was first diagnosed feeling like it was all a bad dream and every time I woke up in the morning it was like a slap in the face that would literally take my breath away. A slap of reality that broke me every morning. Needless to say that feeling has thankfully passed and only hits every now and then. The friends aspect is so hard, hubby found the same thing that people just stopped coming over stopped calling. I suppose they didn't know what to say but as hubby pointed out one day "he was still the same person" . As for treatment I have had that conversation so many times before, if we didn't accidently find out how long could we have gone without anything changing. Unfortunately for us the diagnosis is not good and hasn't been from the start , so some days I wish we never knew so we could have continued with life the way we were. Although the strength mentally emotionally and physically that my husband is showing amazes me every day and I am so proud. As for my babies they are amazing and are the reason I keep going. Take care and it's good to know we are not alone! Ox
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September 2013
Good luck doesn't seem to be the right words. Stay strong ox
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September 2013
Thanks so much for taking the time to reply. . Wow so much you said is so true. I always say to people that I didn't realize there was an option b! I didn't see the other box to tick, this is what is happening and we just have to deal with it the best we can. We have been on fortnightly chemo for the last 12months so I have no idea what cycle we are up to. We have done radiation for 6weeks too. Our kids are the same they know daddy has cancer but don't know we have limited time. I very much believe routine is the key and I do my best between them, hubby and working full time. I too find myself retreating from public appearances as I too hate telling the story over for those that only want to sticky beak and pretend they care. Anyway miss 6 has fallen asleep on my lap best be putting her in bed. Although I do enjoy the cuddles. Thank you again so much I allbof a sudden feel like someone else actually understands. Hope miss 4 is ok 🙂 ox
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