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Thanks so much for supporting me. You are right I'm less angry now. It was great to hear from someone who understands. It was good to look at it from another point of view.It was good to look at it from the point of view of other people not being frightened to go ahead with treatment. Been a little self obsessed lately :) I hope things are working out for you at the moment. Beans

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I have 2 treatments left to go before the end of my radiotherapy and instead of being full of joy and hope I feel like so what next? What next is going to come around the corner and blindside me when all I want is to go to work be a mum and a wife and hold my end up. i want to holiday and be well. I feel like a crispy chip. I have been travelling with people in community transport and they are all older and accepting of this as they have lived their 60 or 70 years but I haven't. I am 40. I still want to see what happens to my kids, travel with my husband and hold my grandchildren. I am annoyed at the press who find celebs that go on and promote cancer and everyone applauds their brilliance because they get back on their bike like nothing happened. Bloody Kerry Anne Kennerly reffered to radio as going to get a bit of radiotherapy just to mop up what was left, like it was effortless. Well f**** you Kerry Anne. I am terminal. I am over it. And when this finishes I don't know if I will get what I want. I'm not sure if burning the crap out of myself is going to make a damn bit of difference. Why aren't we more honest about how things really are instead of being stoic? Stiff upper lip shits me to tears.

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Thanks. I feel like I just want to lift their burden as much as I can. I feel like I want to make up for having cancer and the imapct that it has had on them. I know nothing is going to really make up for it but I need to know at least my guys are ok, for now at least. Emailed Canteen last night. Cross fingers Beans

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Dear Maddie, I am the mother of 3 teenage children. When I have been on ultra strong meds for my bony mets I have been fine. A normal mum with a nanna nap every day. If I was feeling normal, not drowsy etc it meant that I had the right amount in my system. I needed to take them even when I didn't feel anything as if I tried to tough it out the pain drained me incredibly. Trust your pallitive care nurses as they are angels. There are few things that those of us with cancer do not have to put up with but one of these things is not having less quality of life because we have pain. Take a breath and keep strong.

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I want to see if cancer connections can help my kids adjust to me living with cancer. We have moved from out west to have access to better services and have left a happy life and friends behind to start again which is really hard on them all.

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