Just wondering aloud why life is so hard at the moment. Yesterday my partner came home and told me she is going on a holiday with her son to the beach in another state because she needs a break from me. II have stage 4 lung cancer but dont consider myself to be a cripple! She didnt even bother to tell me beforehand that she was organising the trip, plus she also spoke to someone from a respite centre to come and talk to the both of us so I could be 'looked after' properly while she was away so she doesnt have to worry. I feel so insulted that I wasnt invited to go away with them and hurt because she had involved someone else in my care without even mentioning it to me. I tried to be nice about it by offering her a drive to the airport and insisted that I take someone else with me in the car to the airport because I cant be trusted on my own. I feel like I am being robbed of my independence 😞 I asked her when we could go on a cruise together but I was just shut down and told its not going to happen. I can rarely say how I feel without being invalidated. I have no real friends and family is far away. I cant believe I am being treated this way. I've given so much to my partner and her son both in terms of financial and emotional support and when I need something I get stonewalled all the time. Im so tired of it all. I try to get out and do things but lately I have lost the will to live and the motivation to enjoy all life has to offer. I have been to see numerous counsellors. We have been together as well, but I only got screamed at afterwards. I feel so misunderstood 😞
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Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.