Just wondering aloud why life is so hard at the moment. Yesterday my partner came home and told me she is going on a holiday with her son to the beach in another state because she needs a break from me. II have stage 4 lung cancer but dont consider myself to be a cripple! She didnt even bother to tell me beforehand that she was organising the trip, plus she also spoke to someone from a respite centre to come and talk to the both of us so I could be 'looked after' properly while she was away so she doesnt have to worry. I feel so insulted that I wasnt invited to go away with them and hurt because she had involved someone else in my care without even mentioning it to me. I tried to be nice about it by offering her a drive to the airport and insisted that I take someone else with me in the car to the airport because I cant be trusted on my own. I feel like I am being robbed of my independence 😞 I asked her when we could go on a cruise together but I was just shut down and told its not going to happen. I can rarely say how I feel without being invalidated. I have no real friends and family is far away. I cant believe I am being treated this way. I've given so much to my partner and her son both in terms of financial and emotional support and when I need something I get stonewalled all the time. Im so tired of it all. I try to get out and do things but lately I have lost the will to live and the motivation to enjoy all life has to offer. I have been to see numerous counsellors. We have been together as well, but I only got screamed at afterwards. I feel so misunderstood 😞 ... View more