It's a long, long road - just reading your post, makes me feel exhausted... Appointment after appointment. Focusing on the holiday next April sounds like a good idea, something to plan for and look forward to. There will be light at the end of the tunnel, eventually - hang in there and you'll get there in the end !! Just being there for him would mean the world to him.. and yes, reading some of the stories actually makes you realise your not alone and some people are far worse off.. but that doesn't mean we can't have our days of feeling pissed off that ( they ) and we even have to go through it. All we can do is be there for them every step of the way and do whatever we can to get them to the end. Good luck with everything.... keep me posted. here if you ever need to chat... Paula. ... View more

So sorry to hear of your loss, Tammy. He will always be grateful to have had a caring, supportive wife like you, who was there all the way. The funeral will be tough, will be thinking of you - and i hope you start feeling better soon. Baby steps, take it slow. Take care,and we are here anytime you need to talk. Paula. x ... View more

Thanks Robyn, Yes, it absolutely is one of the hardest roads to go down. The waiting is so frustrating.... it takes years off of your life and makes the grey hairs multiply !!! My dads results came back better than expected, the tumor in his stomach definitely has to come out, so he will be having surgery in the next few weeks, but they are confident they can get it all, and then we wait for results.. again.. !! Your right, the wait each time is so nerveracking... but there's nothing you can do about it, just roll with it. How are you going with your treatment ?? Is it knocking you around a bit ?? I bet you are counting down the days until the last one !! I'm sorry to hear both you and your husband have gone through it, that is so unfair. Enough is enough.... We will get there though, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel for all of us, we just have to wait it out. Let me know how you are doing, and thanks so much for your email, it meant a lot. Thinking of you. Paula. ... View more

Thanks so much for your message the other day... I couldn't respond any sooner, because this account blocked me out and i had to wait for the Admin team to fix it. Sorry !! My dad got his results, and they are better than what we were thinking... he has a tumor in his stomach that is in an awkward spot, so he will be going in for surgery in the next few weeks, but they are very hopeful that they can get it all out, and i guess after the operation it will be more waiting !!! The waiting is one of the worst things, it really drives you insane. But for the minute, we can breathe again and concentrate on getting him through this next surgery. I just saw your post above, and you really have had a terrible time.. it would be a shock to see him after that dramatic weight loss, hopefully soon he will get his get his appetite back which will give him some strength and energy back. And yes, your right it's always waiting for that next hurdle, whatever that may be... it seems never ending - and just gets so exhausting.. but we will all pull through it ( we have no choice ) and hopefully for all of us, we will get to the light at the end of the tunnel.. and sit back and start enjoying life again, when it is all over. Hang in there... your doing a great job... we will get there. Hope your week goes ok for you. Thinking of you. Paula. ... View more

I am so sorry to hear about your mum, this must be so hard for you and your family. We are going through Bowel cancer with my dad at the moment, and i understand your rollercoaster of emotions. I cried lining up in the supermarket line the other day - totally unexpected !! Just burst into tears and had to leave. I feel like i have no control over how i am going to be feeling from one day to the next.. this really is one of the hardest things to deal with when it's someone you are so close to. Just remember what a supportive, great daughter you are being, by just being there for your mum, i know you probably don't feel like it's enough - but i'm sure she is so grateful to have you by her side !! I know my dad is, i call him everyday just to let him know that i am thinking of him and i'm there for him. Take each day as it comes,and cherish every moment you have with your mum... my thoughts are with you and i wish you all the best. Paula. x ... View more

So sorry to hear about your brother, Linda.Finding out something like this is just the biggest shock, ever. My dad is fighting bowel cancer as we speak, and it has been nearly a year, and sometimes I still can't believe it. Your right, it does feel like a dream and a really terrible one at that. Just take every day as it comes, and be there anyway you can for your brother, im sure he will really appreciate that, I know my dad does - sometimes just a phone call to tell them that your thinking of them is enough. Good luck Linda, I hope everything turns out well for your brother and i wish you all the luck in the world. Take care. x ... View more