My loving fiancee has Stage IV Metastatic Lung Cancer that has it's roots in several other vital areas of her body, namely her brain and her spine as the most vital. Others are bone (which was thankfully treated until remission, fingers crossed) and it is unknown if her Liver and Kidney's will be or are affected also. Treatments for her have been whittled down to only a view, mostly they think a combination of Avastin (which has a 90% chance of killing her) and something else would be the best combination. Most other treatments are palliative, even the Chemo, nothing has shrunk any tumors, only stopped the growth, and they don't want to operate as they have said there is no point. That and the risk of complications and the recovery issues were another issue. She is currently doing her apprenticeship in mechanical fitting and is working around microscopic particulate called Silica, which has put her at increased risk of Silicosis due to being immune-compromised. This all said and done, her family knows nothing about her Cancer, nothing at all. She has made the choice not to tell them out of fear that it would cause her mother to have a heart attack, because of this, I am the only one that knows the full extent of what she is going through. I am also sworn to secrecy, not to tell her family or my own... I, myself, am far from being mentally stable (as mentioned in my about me for this page). What I want to know is, what the hell do I do? I can't really cope anymore, I had no mental defenses to begin with. I have no one to really talk too. I see a psychiatrist, but only once a month because they are expensive. Living in Tasmania doesn't help either. Any ideas, opinions or points of where to go too? ... View more