Dying is such an awful process, as you know through what you've experienced. It's rare that loved ones go the whole distance. What you did took guts, determination and love. You are a very special person. Your experience with your mum is so intimate and will remain yours forever. Try not to judge too harshly the reactions of others. They clearly aren't as strong as you and that's ok. Not everyone can cope to the same levels. And, that's why you did what you did, your mum needed you and you were there. Now take the time you need to heal. Take care, Jo ... View more