Hi Vanessa...That's ok, no probs... Hey, I know what you mean, about getting stressed before a round of chemo.I found I would get anxious, the night before.I found, listening to music, on my Ipod, really soothed me,during the treatment too...And, my parents would drop me off and stay and hold my hand, when the canula was put in...when I got a Portacath, which I still have, I found it easier, because it was better for me than a canula...every-one is different tho. But, don't try and be Superwoman,it is crap having to have chemo, so crying is a very ok response to the whole scenario...don't suck it in...Oncy nurses are so nice, they are used to us crying,they give good hug...haha Where abouts in the world are you?... Does any-one go with you?...maybe some-one could go with you to make you feel more grounded? Yeah, I would say, hey,I'm one third of the way through, or wow, I'm halfway thru!!..Yay me!!! You can do it...it's so shit that you have to...but, if I can,me, the biggest sook ever, then you can too...you get really good at managing any side effects, and you get a routine with it all. I'm so happy to be of any help, so just feel free to write to me, ok?...you can do it...we are so much stronger than we realise.. Regards and blessings...Joy ... View more

Hi Vanessa...That's ok, no probs... Hey, I know what you mean, about getting stressed before a round of chemo.I found I would get anxious, the night before.I found, listening to music, on my Ipod, really soothed me,during the treatment too...And, my parents would drop me off and stay and hold my hand, when the canula was put in...when I got a Portacath, which I still have, I found it easier, because it was better for me than a canula...every-one is different tho. But, don't try and be Superwoman,it is crap having to have chemo, so crying is a very ok response to the whole scenario...don't suck it in...Oncy nurses are so nice, they are used to us crying,they give good hug...haha Where abouts in the world are you?... Does any-one go with you?...maybe some-one could go with you to make you feel more grounded? Yeah, I would say, hey,I'm one third of the way through, or wow, I'm halfway thru!!..Yay me!!! You can do it...it's so shit that you have to...but, if I can,me, the biggest sook ever, then you can too...you get really good at managing any side effects, and you get a routine with it all. I'm so happy to be of any help, so just feel free to write to me, ok?...you can do it...we are so much stronger than we realise.. Regards and blessings...Joy ... View more

hi nessk... Sorry late reply. Also sorry to hear you have been so crook with chemo.I was the same, I did learn to cope with side effects with meds, I had Nausea, Constipation, and then my Bladder stopped working...Hospital 3 times...!!!>>>BUT, dont dispear, caz you will get really good at self medicating and preventing side effects, before they make you unwell...thats what I did...I took nausea meds BEFORE I got nausea, caz I learnt when it hit me, and I hit it FIRST!!!!... Also, if you can manage it, drink lots of water...if you cant manage to drink, suck on ice cubes...caz that will help you flush out, and that helps your kidneys cope with flushing out the chemo, after it has done its job... I had my Mum come over, on my bad days, after chemo...Thats great you have support.I know its hard and you like to do everything yourself, but you cant at the moment.Make the most of the help that you have and hand it over to them and just concentrate on yourself and getting better.My son is 14, he just would come and lay on my bed and chat, and this was actually a really nice intimate time for us... No, I didn't have a masectomy, so, I can't advise there.I had a lumpectomy,but I may have the reconstruction, caz it doesn't look terrific and I feel self conscious about it...all I can say is, maybe wait until all your treatment is done, and see how you feel then about it...too much going on to decide now, maybe?.. Take each day as it comes, keep well, keep in touch and God Bless, you can do it, we are so much stronger than we think we are. regards...Joy xoxoxoxo ... View more

hello Julie, Thankyou!..joy ... View more