Thank you for taking the time to reply, it means a lot to know people are reading my story. I feel like that's exactly it , you want to be available to them 24/7 but at the same time you just want to feel sane and normal. I'm lucky that my mum is very strong willed and goes on with life as if nothing is holding her back, I'm so proud of her, she is very strong. Every now and then I love to just get away from everyone and have a little reflection and cry for myself, it does feel good to release the stress that does build up. Thank you for all your advice, I will defiantly use it! I hope your father is well xoxo siobhan ... View more

I can totally understand that feeling of not knowing exactly what to say. I wish I could say the what if's go away, but even to this day I constantly think about all the things my mum could miss out on in mine and my siblings lives. Sometimes I think it's the not knowing what feelings to be having can be a terrible part of the whole situations, I have days where I just want to lock myself away from everyone and cry my eyes out, and other days where I want to see the silver lining in our situation. Don't ever feel sorry for sharing your story, we're all hurting and it's great to have support from people who understand what it's like. I am praying for you, your father and family. If ever you need a shoulder to lean on, feel free to comment me on here, helping people that are in the same position as me makes me feel like, if even just in a small way, I can be a 20 year old Making a small difference, I hope your family can hear some good news soon, chin up 🙂 Siobhan xx ... View more

Thank you for your reply, I'm sorry to hear of your loved Ones passing, but it's great to hear you had so many great times and good memories. My mum is a very strong person and she is showing tremendous courage, she also has a positive outlook on like, which is making this time easier for everyone, we think that sometimes your attitude can be half the battle 🙂 but thank you for showing me support, I'm very thankful ... View more