I had colon cancer that went to my liver and was told last week I wont last more than 12mths
Trust me you aren't the only angry one lol, I am having a shit day today but to your point I think the anger is normal the questioning etc
I had to tell my parents yesterday and I made a point of how I still wanted to be treated
business as usual til it is no more, don't treat me any different I can still do stuff don't run around after me don't ask me 30 times a day if I am ok, if I wake up in the middle of the night its to piss its normal
I can only imagine how hard it is for our partners but over compensating only annoys me (I can only assume your partner may be feeling similar)
and if anyone starts to tell cancer stories glare at them til they hit the ground in excrutiating pain, not cool regardless of the outcome
I just hope my loved ones , the ones that matter, can put on a brave face for me because I don't want to spend what time may be left sad or watching them upset.
As much as it sucks (to put it mildly) if it is to happen we now have a chance a lot of people don't to really live like we all should be anyway to the full and really be kind to each other not babying but loving and kind so when the time comes we know we have done all we can with our lives.
the shit will still flow, the emotions will come, the fear, the resentment, the anger, the questioning and sadness but theres stuff all we can do but get on with it we are after still alive today.
I have yet to cry this time but having gone through the colon cancer and treatments for a few months I had my melt downs then so have not been so affected this time as stupid as that may sound (considering now I am apparently dying???)
sorry if that was a too much of a rant but I think I have been having the same kind of day
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