First of all, I'm so sorry that your going through this. A lot of people don't know how to deal with cancer, so they keep their distance(well in my case they are) its such an alienating disease. But you do have people out there that are there for you. I reckon spend time with your grandma sharing old stories or even looking at old photos. Spend time with her because she loves you. You sound like a really strong person that's been dealt some pretty crappy cards. But being on here and talking about it is a great way to release. I really wish you and your grandma warm wishes xx   ... View more

My husband has gone through cycles of bad moods, verbal abuse and then he will be the sweetest guy you will ever met. To start with I ignored it, but it gets to the point where you just can't take it any more and you lash out back at them. I know it's the stress and the chemo but it's still hard. I have had days where I sat in the car thinkng I could just drive away. But thankfully my husband will come out the other end and will hopefully go back to being him. Counciling also helps them to express all those feelings. Big hugs ... View more