Hi Junine,   It sounds like you are both going through a very rough time.  Your husband might be having a hard time accepting his cancer.  Would he be prepared to speak with a counsellor?   There are counsellors you can be referred to so you can both have a chat about what is happening.  If your husband doesn't want to talk to anyone, that doesn't mean that you can't.   Don't be too hard on yourself.  You are right to take precautions.  Hugging your husband is quite ok, but if you're going to have sex, you should use a condom for protection.  You should protect yourself from all of his bodily fluids while he is having chemo.    It makes it very difficult if you have no-one to offer you any support.    Hopefully, you will continue to use this forum to talk about things that are worrying you as well. You do need to take time for yourself though.  Take a day, or even half a day to just relax and do something you want to do for yourself.   Take care Budgie     ... View more