Hi Mate, i feel your pain, as my wife of 20 years has been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. Trying to stay positive for her, our two teenage sons and our respective families. However, knowing the truth I’m filled with fear, for the first time in my life, for the future. I feel your no real support as my friends all tell me to @Jonathan wrote: My mother is my all. I sort of deified her for saving my sister and myself from an abusive father. I reluctantly agreed with my sister to not cry or "to keep it positive" around my mother. I cry at night, behind any locked doors, bathrooms when the shower is running, etc. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it. I confided in my best friend (a fixer) and her "solutions" just upset me and I shutdown. I do go to therapy but I feel if I was really honest about how I am feeling it might worry people. I'm torn between being there for my mom and falling apart. I just needed to write that. thanx for listening. j be strong for her, but what about me? I’m holding down a 50 hr job, hsc study for my eldest and caring for my wife and no one seems to care about the emotional roller coaster I’m on. The level of despair that I feel at the moment made worse by people asking me ‘how do I feel?’ Or ‘are you OK?’ And when I reply bad or no they respond by saying ‘you’re doing a good job’ what a heap of bull. Just feel really alone at the moment so I get your pain.
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