My younger brother just passed away from stage 4 colon cancer that spread to his liver. He was a bloody amazing bloke, super fit and didn't deserve this. He battled through testicel cancer also, at 19 years old that spread and nearly killed him. Im not one to use public forums but Im struggling and wanted to tell my story quickly to see if anyone else is in the same boat.
Im 32, two years older then by brother. Its not just his death at such a young age thats killing me but also the year of torchure and false hope leading up to the end of his life. The treatment was barbarik!! Chemo, radiation, scans, surgeory, pains everywhere, blood clots, needles, failing kidney it never ended and I feel the medical proffesionals in this area know little to nothing about cancer and only give you these horrible options to try and save yourself. Im angry most days and feel a sadness I cant describe every other minute of every day.
My family and I had to watch my fit, strong, happy, cheaky brother fade away to a shadow and take his last breath. All he cared about was trying to do everything he could for my parents, sisters and I because he knew it was all over for him. That broke my heart having to watch and would have given anything to be able to help him.
I love him so much. I have regrets also about time spent together as adults. I cant believe this has happened.
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