January 2019
1 Kudo
Great insight Budgie! Thank you for the response. I think I understand what you are saying. It's so strange. I don't want extra attention, I certainly don't want to be the topic of conversation every time we gather. But an occasional "need anything?" or to acknowledge the hard work I put in walking on my treadmill, or my strict attention to my healthy diet, but especially on my 50th Birthday, I expected just a bit of a pat on the back or even an "old man" joke. Maybe you're right, in that they don't know what to say so they ignore the situation. Anyway, I don't let hurt feelings linger, life is literally too short! Thanks again for reading my message and responding. Best wishes, Rick
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January 2019
1 Kudo
Well now that's about what I needed to read at this time, and from someone who knows what it's all about. Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. And your idea about simply taking in nature hits home with me. I'm a country boy/grown man, and in nature I find peace. Thank you!
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January 2019
1 Kudo
My emotions may be getting the best of me? I may be overly sensitive? I have terminal cancer, diagnosed February 13th 2018. My Doc gave me "up to a year". They told me I would be in a wheelchair at best, but probably bed ridden within a month from then. Well, it's a year later, and I'm still standing on my own 2 feet. I put on a brave front every day, for my family, especially my Mom. But I feel like I'm not getting any love from my family. My 50th Birthday was last December 29th 2018, almost a year after my diagnosis. No party, no "we admire you", no words of encouragement, nothing. Because I fight every minute of every day to maintain an acceptable exterior, I guess I don't look "sick enough", or like my terminal condition isn't as serious as other people in my condition. It makes me want to give up, just lay in bed and slowly pass away, like the "really" sick people. I pray I'm not being a crybaby, but a random "you inspire others" or anything to acknowledge how hard I work to act and look "normal", so my condition doesn't bring sorrow to my family. Is it OK for me to feel this way? Am I being a crybaby? Somebody please let me know.
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