HI,  Your son is just worried, these days Google is the  main source for the next generation, unfortunately Google is just information and it is not specific too just you, your experience,the many variables that everyone has with this scary disease. It is his fear for wanting to know exactly what is what. Maybe take him to your next appointment ? he can then find out that even the professionals can only work with what is now.  I have gained the courage to ask the questions i thought i was never able to, and even then, sometimes there just is no definative answer, it is frustrating for us, that alone for them, the ones that love you and just need to know.    I guess when you are of a certain age, it is expected of others that you just do what you need too, that the side affects like you are experiencing having to wear diapers, you should just deal with. Unfortunately there is what you have to deal with, and what you yourself feel about that, i think that gets lost in the equation. Like, your alive ! isnt that whats inportant !  Just because you are alive, doesn't mean that what you have to do to remain that way, is pleasant or kind. I am sorry that you are going through what you are, reach out to your son, maybe explain these things, its ok to let him know how you feel about being you right now, Google cant explain that, but you can.         ... View more