New to this forum New to 'cancer' as a 'cancer patient' New to this fear , anxiety and feeling of detachment. I have removed myelf from FB and all social activities - I said i never wanted to join the 'cancer club' no disrespect to anyone but here i am . I live iwth my mother after just losing my aunt, my beautiful father suddenly of a brain tumour my 2 girlfriends and now its my turn . This just feels surreal. I feel alone I feel targeted by some twisted and cruel God Even my mother dosent get it .. i have bad days .. today was one so i joined this forum and read a few posts as it seems we do get it. until you are here .. and i was the supprortive one but until you are 'here' its a totally different world and its alone , scarey , and i just wanted to say i dont want to die but i dont want to live waiting to die either. my cancer is incurable i have been given 10 yeasr NHL i just finished chemo and reponded to treatment .. but i cant help but think until when ??? im in a bad place and now considering the anti depressants i have been in my pjs since diagnosis last sept.
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Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.