I have a great family. And some amazing friends. No girlfriend. Just my beautiful dog. All that and i still can’t talk to them about how i feel.  3 weeks ago i buried my big brother. He had his 40th in February. For 3 years he had been fighting brain cancer. I can’t even pronounce what tumour he had but they also called it The Terminator. It was one of the worst ones.  It was a major shock at the start, but after a couple surgeries and treatment he was fine. Kept running his own business and got on with life. But then a year ago it all went to shit.  Id rather not get into the details as his life and symptoms are very hard to talk about.  We eventually took him to Charlie Teo who removed alot of the tumour. As hard as it was we managed to get him home to our local hospital. But then caught an infection and was unresponsive.  For weeks we thought this was going yo get him but in the end the tumour had its own plans so within 1 month, it didn’t grow back in the original spot it went straight for his brain. There was nothing any of us could do.  We were by his side through his final moments. And he went peacefully.  But now I’m lost.  He was my best friend.  What do i do..... ... View more