Hello. My dad died from cancer coming up to ten years ago when I was 17. He had been ill for a couple of years before and had been operated on a number of times alongside all the usual cancer treatments. At the time my mum was also ill and as the eldest sibling of a brother and sister, I felt quite a weight in caring for my mum and going through the bereavement of my dad. It is only recently, after almost ten years, that I have begun to realise that I experienced quite a significant trauma in my teenage years with the death of my dad and subsequent illness of my mum. I never considered myself as a career to her but I took on the responsibilities of parent in the years that followed my dad's death and I now realise that I was caring for my family. At the time I had no support beyond extended family at the weekend and I was also offered no bereavement counselling. In the years since his death I have increasingly struggled to cope with the sense of grief and I have begun to feel quite severe anxiety and panic attacks to the point where some activities have become almost impossible. Instead of feeling the grief lesson, I feel as though it is in fact getting worse. I have recently, decided to look into CBT for my anxiety and bereavement counselling to deal with unresolved issues.    If anyone has any advice or any insight into this, I would greatly appreciate it.  ... View more