May 2022
Does it get easier Linda? All I do is cry, I wouldn’t want her to be in this world the way she was. But gosh I didn’t want to imagine it without her either. She was only 54. I am 29, all I wanted was for her to see my babies and live this life to her fullest. Cancer stole that from her, it’s just so unfair that she had to suffer. It stole her smile and cheekiness. But yesterday I swear I felt her with me, I felt her in my heart - a warmth. I know she will be with me always.
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May 2022
Yesterday has got to have been the worse day. We knew it was coming, mum was restless and feeling so unwell. She pushed us away until just before she left this world. She only wanted my dad to be around when she left. I missed her by a maybe 30 minutes. But I spoke to her in the morning, we told each other we loved each other. But the pain in my heart it’s overwhelming, I feel so empty. My mum, my mum is gone.
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January 2020
1 Kudo
I totally get where you are coming from, it makes me so sad about the things that I won’t get to ask her and she won’t get to see. I just keep trying to make the most of it all. Great idea with the videos, I might start doing that.
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December 2019
1 Kudo
Hi there. My name is Lauren, I am a 27yr old. My beautiful mum found out her inflammatory breast cancer has come back in Feb this year. She was given 6-18mths. She is an amazingly strong women who is a true fighter. This year has been living hell for her, she is currently on a last chance chemo which has been horrible. She gets so sick from it but she wants more than anything the chance for more time with me and my sisters. It has been so difficult dealing with seeing her suffer (I am a nurse.. I find it hard cause I deal with cancer patients at work too). I feel at times I am complete mess, I just can’t stop the tears and fear of loosing her. I do the right things, I see a counsellor, I take meds to help the depression/anxiety, I try and look after myself. But honestly I am struggling. I am mad she has to suffer, why did this have to come back? I don’t want to loose her. I know this is all part of grieving and a fear of the future. But I just wonder what else I can do to be there for her? To try not to break down.
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