Hi Craig,  you sound like a formidable opponent for that young doctor. I can tell nothing or on one will get the better of you! Keep up that fighting spirit, and be kind to the young ones who lack your life experience.  Big Hug.  ... View more

Hi Nova4545, it is very worrying playing the waiting game and believing time may be running out. If you are powerless to speed up the medical professionals then perhaps try to take the power back into your hands, look at alternative medicines and foods that may help. A friend recommended B17 injections can kill off cancer cells, check it out. I have recently been following Dr Lori Shemek on twitter (@LoriShemek) if have found her inspirational for knowledge about health and diet and simple things I can do to effect change in my own health. What I'm trying to say is don't just play the waiting game and becoming more anxious daily do something proactive so you can be in the best physical and mental shape you can be. All the best on your journey - you never know what you will find on the way. Love and a big hug. xxx Tippets ... View more

Hello Jubbly, when I read your post I had a little smile.. it seemed like you could be the one performing the surgery in 9 sleeps time.... If you are, then I too would be scared witless. LOL. But I assume you are about to be the patient who has a great surgeon who knows exactly what he is doing. The sooner it is out the quicker you can move on to the next step... getting on with the rest of your life. I had surgery last month. I was lucky my surgeon had a cancellation and moved me forward by 5 days. The waiting and the anxiety and the fear of the unknown the negative thoughts "what if" the positive ones "I can beat this" and everything in between. Sometimes it just feels like you are on a rollercoaster ride and you are in the front seat. We are the lucky ones, please don't worry about the things you are powerless to change. I have a good feeling that you are going to be just fine. Big hug and lots of love I'm sending to you. XXX ... View more

Hello Purplegirl,  I understand the fear , I had half my bowel removed last month and my 1st Chemo 5 days ago and a long journey ahead. All I can say is you take it day by day believe in the advice of the people who know what they are talking about. We play the hand we are dealt and make the best choices we can. I like to be positive and also realistic, but sometimes I just fall apart into an inconsolable blithering heap with the fear of treatment... and on going treatment and the thought of potential outcomes. I think it is perfectly natural to feel all these mixed emotions given that we are in that elite group (cancer patients) . My surgery went well, my 1st Chemo was not as bad as I thought . You do what you have to do to get through this, it might not be quite as bad as you expect. I wish you all the best and send you my love and a great big hug.  Us girls are allowed to cry .  ... View more