MerrillPatton,    I don’t think your weak.  I’m sorry for your hurt and pain.  As I am dealing with my husbands cancer.  I myself have lost my dad.  I went thru a lot and it’s been since 2007 when he passed.  I still have days where I cry for him.  To hear his voice, a smile even an argument.  I would do anything for another day, even an hour.  Please don’t be sorry.  We all need to vent.  You are not selfish or any other names.  You are hurting as we all are.  Please know I totally understand and I’m sorry.   ... View more

Well, It's not like that I was strong all the time watching him suffering like that. There were some times when I wanted to cry so hard, but sometimes things are not in our hands. When your loved one needs you the most then you'll have to gain enough courage to share his pain till the end no matter what. ... View more