Hello, new here so thanks for listening.   I have been caring for my brother who was originally diagnosed with throat cancer. After 12 months of extensive radiation and chemo, the cancer was gone (so we were told). On the very same day, we were advised of a new spot on the left lung. That was 2 years ago and in that time he has in counted countless radiation and chemo treatments...I honestly have lost track of exactly how many. He has been on a "break" of treatment and 3 monthly scans and doc appointments since Nov 19.    Everyday since diagnosis it has been the topic of every conversation, the meaning of every day and the thing that my whole life revolves around. He lives 300kms away from my family home and if he is not under my roof with my family, I am driving up and down the coast to his. I believe he cannot live any longer by himself as he just does not take the time to care for himself although he will tell you a different story. On the occasions that I leave him alone, the next day I find that I will have to clean up the constant mess of someone who is awaiting the cleaner to come in. I sometimes feel that I am doing everything to try and help him, but getting no signs from him that he is trying to help himself.   My marriage is suffering, my family is missing out and my social circle has dwindled down to a couple of friends. Im struggling to find the strength to continue, both physically and mentally. So many other things have happened in that 3 years, most of it I missed out on as I made him my priority. I feel like I have let my family down, and most of all myself yet I can't walk away. I know that he has had a terrible fight and I really must support him, but I am losing myself. Is that selfish?   Love to hear others that have or are experiencing the same thing and any advice you could throw at me would be great. I have to pull myself out of this.   ... View more