Hi everyone, so thankful you're here to listen.  Three days into my husband's prostate with metastases diagnosis.  I'm angry, can't think a thought all the way to the end, and feel there's way too much I have to keep on top of. My hands are shaking. I'm swearing. A lot. Problem I suppose is that I feel I can't express any of this. Or do my usual meditation or yoga cause I have to be there for him. I think he'd much rather I wasn't hovering.  When did you feel OK enough to back off from the hypervigilance? ... View more

Hi everyone!! And thank you for being there🧡 Husband was diagnosed with prostate cancer metastising to lymph and spine 3 days ago. Unfortunately, as covid on ward, discharged before radiation oncologist could see him for follow-up, just a script faxed thru for firmagon injection to be given by GP. Who we saw today, and injection given.  However, experiencing quite a lot of breakthrough pain despite Oxycontin 15mg twice daily, using Oxycodone 5mg to cover that as per oncologist advice.  GP feels this is an elephant gun to kill a mosquito, ignored the pain diary we'd been keeping with meds marked, and wants pain relief both Oxycontin and Oxycodone as well as paracetamol and ibuprofen reduced.  I am extremely unwilling to mess with oncologist's regime, as this is her field.  Do I be a bitch and telephone oncologist to get her to bring GP in line? Shan't see oncologist for a fortnight, and that is too long to have uncontrolled pain. Any advice or personal stories would be so gratefully received, as right now I'm not coping and feeling like shrieking. (There has been a bit of swearing!!!!) Thank you all so much ❤  ... View more