I posted here a few weeks ago, telling of my sister in England who had lung cancer. I visited her in October with my son. It was a very meaningful visit. I returned on 4th January alone. She had deteriorated rapidly and was in hospital. She died on the 18th January. Her funeral was on 23 January - exactly a week ago. I returned to Australia last Tuesday. Everything is too hard to grasp. This time last week I was at her funeral in England in the freezing cold, surrounded by family members. Now I am alone, in Australia, and in a heat wave. My children who rang me everyday while I was in England are now nowhere to be seen, busy with their lives. I have been alone since Tuesday. I wish I hadn't come home. I don't feel like talking to anybody or going anywhere. All I do is cry, and feel lost. Jo - marg ... View more

Hello, I've just joined this site, as I'm having a very difficult time. I live in Melbourne. My sister was diagnosed last April with advanced lung cancer. She lives in England. I have been through many emotions since then. Last October I went to England to spend 2 weeks with her. I hadn't seen her for 7 years. She was expected to live appx 12 months. I went to a couple of chemotherapy sessions with her. We talked and talked every day. We had never talked like that before. On Christmas day, I got news that she is deteriorating rapidly - she is not eating, is losing weight, and has no energy. I am preparing myself to fly out as soon as possible. I have been feeling very anxious this past 2 days, and am afraid I am losing my mind. I feel so afraid of just about everything. My sister is 62. I believe she will not live much longer. At the same time I can't believe it. I can't imagine her not being here anymore. My parents both died when I was very young, but they died suddenly. I have never been in this position before. I am afraid of going crazy and being no use to anyone. I look forward to meeting people who understand. jo - marg ... View more